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Nightmares, Insomnia, Cigarettes
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Steel and concrete and brick and violence; that's how I was raised.

What is there to say? I'm a self important, angsty teenage pseudo-philosopher. I spend my weekends under a desk with a blanket over it, listening to Wagner, drinking whiskey and reading Dostoevsky, Nietzsche, Kafka, Wilde, Eliot...

Current Residence: The Womb
Favourite genre of music: Rock/Alternative/Classical/PUNK
MP3 player of choice: So long as it plays music, I'm fine with it,
Shell of choice: Shell service stations do relativly nice coffee. You know, for a service station that is.
Wallpaper of choice: What? Wallpaper? Do you guys REALLY want to know that? 'Cause that's a bit creepy.
Skin of choice: Well personally I'm white, not that I really have a choice.
Favourite cartoon character: Jahib the Jewish Terrorist
Personal Quote: "Why is all the 6oClock news on at the same time?"
I cry way too easily recently. Even over stupid things, things that don't even upset me. Like today after class my Philosophy teacher pulled me aside to have a chat about not calling people morons during debate, and acting as though their point is valid even if it clearly presents a logical fallacy, and I was just spending the whole conversation working so hard to hold back tears. I don't even know why; it's not like it's the first time I've had these conversations with various teachers. Or the other day when my mum told me to stop twitching at the dinner table – something which, I swear, I can't help – and I had to go upstairs because the fact I can't stop doing it just frustrates me so much, and I won't ever let her see me upset.

I don't know. I just think that I've spent too long looking for a quick fix for something that's been breaking for years, and now that lost time is catching up to me. I feel like I've wasted all my early adolescence and the days just keep slipping away way too fast and there's not a single damn thing I can do about it. I want something to validate all the choices I've made. But I've made some stupid fucking choices. Maybe if I start being honest with myself I'll know how to be honest with other people. I might start sleeping more, swearing less. Fuck, I might even finish that book. But I don't have much faith in any of that.

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LeiAndLove Oct 11, 2012  Student Filmographer
Thankee for the fav! :glomp:
AtheosEmanon May 22, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks for the fave of the atheist leftist answer your questions
scheinbar Feb 14, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thanks :thanks::thanks::nod:
figueline Dec 31, 2011
Thank you !
Thank you very much for the :+fav:! :dance:
Thanks for the fave! :)
AndySerrano Oct 24, 2011  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
:icondsfav1plz::icondsfav2plz::icondsfav3plz: on Philosopher's Walk. If you ever get the chance, this is one of the most beautiful walks you can take in Kyoto, Japan. [link]
AndySerrano Oct 24, 2011  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
:icondbthx1::icondbthx2::icondbthx3: on Infant Feeding Koi. It's great you enjoy the fine art and tranquility of Koi. [link]
JackSpades64 Sep 26, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fave
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