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Nightmares, Insomnia, Cigarettes
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Steel and concrete and brick and violence; that's how I was raised.

What is there to say? I'm a self important, angsty teenage pseudo-philosopher. I spend my weekends under a desk with a blanket over it, listening to Wagner, drinking whiskey and reading Dostoevsky, Nietzsche, Kafka, Wilde, Eliot...

Current Residence: The Womb
Favourite genre of music: Rock/Alternative/Classical/PUNK
MP3 player of choice: So long as it plays music, I'm fine with it,
Shell of choice: Shell service stations do relativly nice coffee. You know, for a service station that is.
Wallpaper of choice: What? Wallpaper? Do you guys REALLY want to know that? 'Cause that's a bit creepy.
Skin of choice: Well personally I'm white, not that I really have a choice.
Favourite cartoon character: Jahib the Jewish Terrorist
Personal Quote: "Why is all the 6oClock news on at the same time?"
I cry way too easily recently. Even over stupid things, things that don't even upset me. Like today after class my Philosophy teacher pulled me aside to have a chat about not calling people morons during debate, and acting as though their point is valid even if it clearly presents a logical fallacy, and I was just spending the whole conversation working so hard to hold back tears. I don't even know why; it's not like it's the first time I've had these conversations with various teachers. Or the other day when my mum told me to stop twitching at the dinner table – something which, I swear, I can't help – and I had to go upstairs because the fact I can't stop doing it just frustrates me so much, and I won't ever let her see me upset.

I don't know. I just think that I've spent too long looking for a quick fix for something that's been breaking for years, and now that lost time is catching up to me. I feel like I've wasted all my early adolescence and the days just keep slipping away way too fast and there's not a single damn thing I can do about it. I want something to validate all the choices I've made. But I've made some stupid fucking choices. Maybe if I start being honest with myself I'll know how to be honest with other people. I might start sleeping more, swearing less. Fuck, I might even finish that book. But I don't have much faith in any of that.



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LeiAndLove Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2012  Student Filmographer
Thankee for the fav! :glomp:
AtheosEmanon Featured By Owner May 22, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks for the fave of the atheist leftist answer your questions
scheinbar Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thanks :thanks::thanks::nod:
figueline Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2011
Thank you !
BaalSoulslayer Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2011  Hobbyist
Thank you very much for the :+fav:! :dance:
beeinthebottle Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2011   Writer
Thanks for the fave! :)
AndySerrano Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2011  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
:icondsfav1plz::icondsfav2plz::icondsfav3plz: on Philosopher's Walk. If you ever get the chance, this is one of the most beautiful walks you can take in Kyoto, Japan. [link]
AndySerrano Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2011  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
:icondbthx1::icondbthx2::icondbthx3: on Infant Feeding Koi. It's great you enjoy the fine art and tranquility of Koi. [link]
JackSpades64 Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fave
ucieczkaodwolnosci Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2011
Thank you
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